We have been so incredibly blessed this week. And its only Wednesday!
You all remember me writing about Mia's burn on her fingers. It happened about 2 months ago when we first moved to this new place. It was scary for a bit because the doctor thought it was staph infection, and that she might need a skin graft. Just the fact that she even burned herself was enough to make me emotional and feel like the worst mommy of the year by not watching her close enough. (Even though it was a complete accident)
Luckily with lots of prayers and a blessing, she healed well and didnt have to go to any extreme measures! We went to the UofU burn clinic, and physical therapy, and probably 6 visits to the regular doctor.. all which cost around 80 a visit. Yes, we have insurance, but our deductible is 2700 and our out of pocket max is 5300. So we haven't reached the deductible yet. We are still paying her birth off- (I know, shes 15 months old and we havent paid it off yet.. but seriously, if we had 5300 to just throw around we would have it paid off by now! Her bill was more than 15,000 but because our out of pocket max is 5300 thats all we have to pay..)
Anyway, about 2 weeks ago I got the bill for her burns. It was a little over $700. I about peed my pants. I didnt even want to believe it, I put it aside and forgot about it.. but then the stress of this coming baby and all the expenses with that has just been getting to us. We knew we would make it work because we have been paying our tithing and things always work out one way or another... but we had been praying for a way to figure this whole thing out.
Well, Monday, I went to check our mail. It was 6:30 pm and Mia and I were going to go walk around the mall or Target because it was like 100 degrees that day and our apartment doesnt have AC.. so I was roasting. Plus, walking is good exercise for me. We checked the mail first and I saw a letter for Kevin. Normally I would have just let him open it but I am usually the one who does all the bills/mail so I decided to open it. I was sitting in the car and Mia was in the back talking away. When I opened it, I couldn't believe what I saw...
At first I was in shock. I didnt say a word. I lifted the post it note and saw that the check was for $700. The envelope did not say who it was from. Then, the tears came. I said a little prayer of thanks and then got so excited to tell Kevin. Instead of going to take a walk around Target or the Mall, we drove straight to Kevin's work to visit him on his dinner break. We got there right in time when he got on break and I handed him the envelope. We both sat there in disbelief and joy. How grateful we are. We sat there and talked about how our goal in life is to some day make enough money to be able to do good deeds like this for others.. because this was no small act of kindness. This was a GIANT act of kindness! I mean, what a selfless and wonderful and thoughtful thing of that person to do. We hugged eachother and I think at that moment we knew things would work out.
I went home after visiting him and held on to Mia tight. I rocked her before bed time and sang I am a Child Of God. She snuggled me and I sat there with tears in my eyes full of gratitude- for her- for our life- for the things we have- the Gospel- the random acts of kindness- the fact that God answers prayers.. and especially for this person who sent us this check. If that person is reading this, please know that we will never, EVER forget this. To us it means the world. I wish I knew who you were so I could just hug you and tell you what a wonderful person you are. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I will never be able to express how thankful we are.
Then, today, another amazing thing happened. I went to the dentist to get cavities filled. I have 6 (yikes) to be filled, but today they just did 3 that were all on the same side. I see Craig Christeansen here in Orem off 8th North. I've been going to him since he first started his practice 18 years ago. He has always been such a wonderful, friendly, kind, giving person. He has done lots of free things for my family and given me great discounts on my braces and whatnot. He does his job to make people happy not to make money. He remembers small details about my life and always asks about all my siblings (most all of them have been to him too) and always seems interested in our life! He is LDS and just a down right solid man who I consider a close friend after all these years. I dont think I could ever leave his office. Anyway, so he filled my cavities today. After he was finished, he said he wanted to let me know that all my work was free of charge. I told him he couldnt do that and he said yes I can! He told me that he knows we are struggling students and have a baby coming on the way. That he cares about me and wants to take care of me and my family so he wanted to do it all free of charge.
Why am I being so blessed right now??
I gave him a huge hug and told him how much I appreciated him. I think my next step is a thank you card and some good homemade oreos. Sweets for the dentist right?! Hahahaha.
Really though, I do not feel deserving of all these nice things people are doing for me. I keep getting the feeling that something bad is about to happen and thats why we are being blessed now.. haha!
I haven't been in such a good emotional place for such a long time. It has taken 3 long years to get to where I am emotionally. It's taken friends yelling at me to let me know how negative and messed up I was- to people cutting me out of their life- to counseling- to being on medicine (most likely for the rest of my life)- to researching depression- to sometimes doing what is best for myself- to strengthening my testimony- to trusting in the Lord to make things work out.. to get me where I am today.
I am proud to say that I love where my life is right now. I dont care that we dont have an over abundance of money. Or own a house. Or have two cars. I care that I am HAPPY. I love my family. I love my life. Sure, we struggle, and have our ups and downs and I am in no way trying to portray a perfect life for us because that is not the case... But overall...
I am blessed. Truly, blessed.
Thanks to the people who are supporting us in our life. To the people who have loved me regardless of how emotional and depressed I am sometimes. To the people who have stuck around and helped me through my trials and hard times. To the people who are in tune with the spirit to know what others need- that check for example. Thank you to my Heavenly Father for watching out for us and sending every day heros into our life when he can't physically be here himself.
I am happy.