There are a few parts in here where Mia is literally gray/purple because she isn't breathing. Every time I watch it I hold my breath.. I had no idea how much she was struggling because I was getting stitched up and cleaned up. All I know is that I only got to hold Mia for a few seconds before they took her away, and that I wanted my little baby back! I was so relieved not to be pregnant anymore, but then felt weird not having her inside of me, for me to feel her kicking and moving all day. When they took her away I felt like a piece of me was gone. She had been with me for the last 9 months and then she was gone just like that! At least we got to visit her in the NICU. So grateful for that. And, so grateful for awesome doctors who took such good care of her, and that we got to take her home soon after.