Monday, March 26, 2012

back in business

ladies and gents, I am now back in business. haha. 

well, kinda. I decided after lots of prayers and thought and discussing with Kevin that I will not return to work at the Salon. I will be doing the stay at home mom thing. However, I will still do hair on the side just here at my home or at your house if you cant come here. 

I was totally planning on going back to the salon come April. I got 4 weeks of maternity leave and was planning on going back like 3 days for half a day or something each time. I would have Ally or Kevins mom watch Mia on those days because Kevin would be at school or work. I went to an all day salon training meeting a week and a half after Mia was born and for some reason, I just had this pit in my stomach. They wanted me to come back 3days a week for 8 hours each time. (because realistically, a half day is only 4 hours and that would only get one color and cut in) So it made sense to do 8 hours, but I just couldn't justify leaving Mia. For one, I had all these anxieties about leaving her at 4 weeks old. And then, what if she wouldn't take a bottle? What if she would take a bottle, but preferred that to my breast? (tmi sorry). Then, I just got sad at the thought of leaving her. I literally had a panic attack after the meeting and just didn't feel right about going back to work. I cried forever about it all week. I told Kevin how I felt and we decided to pray about it. Then, we got our taxes back. We realized that I made hardly ANY money doing hair last year (partly because I was sick for 9 months of it) so we knew we didn't rely on my income. It was more of a bonus. We decided we could do without the extra money and that it was more important for me to stay home with Mia. I have always wanted to be a stay at home mom and I just didn't want to pay someone to watch Mia the whole 8 hours- then I would just be working to make money for someone else to raise my child. I really enjoy being a mother and feel confident in my mothering skills. (although it IS hard and I AM tired.. haha) I just feel like now is the time and if we can make it work, then why not? I can't wait to spend my time home with my sweet little girl every day! I know the Lord will bless us for making this decision and Kev and I feel really good about it. We may have to do without doing super fun stuff or going out to eat, but that's worth it to me if I can stay home with Mia.  

So, I called the owner of the salon and told her I would not be returning. She was so nice and so understanding, it really meant alot to me. That also was kind of a sign that I made the right choice by listening to my answer of my prayer. The owner, Hillary, told me if I ever wanted to come back I could have my job back and that she totally understood how I was feeling and that I had to do what was best for my family. I really appreciated her for being so kind about it. I am truly going to miss the salon. I have loved it there, and made such great friends, and learned SO much about hair by watching all the talented stylists there. If you girls are reading this, know that I love you all and will miss you SOOO much! But don't worry, I will come by and visit with my lil babe. And Dani, I will need to come get a facial from you sometime. :) 

I am excited for what the future holds and I hope I can continue to be a stay at home mom. With all that being said, I still want to continue to do hair. I don't want to loose my skills and it's something I enjoy doing. I set up a little corner in my house for all hair stuff so I can do it here. I can work any day/time now so if you need something done, let me know. My prices will be $10 cheaper for color and $5 cheaper for cuts since I will be doing it here and not at the salon. (I still have to make money to help out so Kevin isn't so stressed about making all the money haha)

Here is my little hair corner:

So, if you want to get your hair done, call me or text me at 801-616-7288. :)

Sunday, March 25, 2012

owl paintings, baby stats, and city creek

Before Mia was born I called my sister Adrianne and asked her if she would paint something for Mia's room. Since we aren't able to paint our walls, I thought a few canvas paintings would be super cute and add color. I sent her a picture of the baby bedding I had and told her to paint whatever she wanted. I got them in the mail a little bit ago and hung them up right away! I am in love with them. 

In fact, Kevin came home and asked me where I bought them. I said, well my sister painted them! He then said "Really? Wow!" They match perfectly. Thanks Adrianne! I LOVE them! Best present ever. :)

Being a mommy has been great so far. Sorry that's all I blog about now.. I guess my life is consumed by pink and diapers and milk comas and baby talk! Mia is so funny. I put her on her tummy for tummy time and she will just lay her head right down and relax. She actually has a really strong head already because when I lay her on my chest she always pulls her head back to look up at me. It takes alot to get this girl to stop moving and relax. She sounds like her mommy!

I have been enjoying dressing her up and making a few headbands. I had tons of headbands that were given to me by friends and such but none of them fit her yet... So, the other day I had to make a few.
The other day my sister Chelsey and her kids Sarah and Jake came down to provo and took Mia, me, my mom, and my sister Kaitlin out to lunch. We went to Panda Express. It was yummy and fun to get out and visit! I dressed Mia up all cute and put in one of the headbands I made. When we came home from lunch she was making all sorts of silly faces so I had to take a few pictures.
 And, I got one of her flaring her nostrils, which she does all the time!

She had her dr. appointment on Thursday and she is a very healthy baby! She now weighs 8lbs 3 oz. and is 20.5 inches long. She is in the 33rd percentile for weight and 44th for height. She has a blocked tear duct on her left eye (poor thing) that will hopefully resolve on it's own soon. She is eating great and pooping all the freaking time. Haha. She just started getting baby acne, pretty bad. Hopefully that will go away soon too. She loves her binky, and has decided the last two nights that sleeping for 4 hours at a time is not cool anymore. She woke up every hour from 5-11am this morning. awesome. Haha. Luckily I have Kevin to help me on the weekends! 

Kevin and I went up to City Creek with Mia last night. It was such nice weather yesterday so we figured it would be a good day to get out. I had major anxiety once we were there though, so many people, so many germs... ah! We kept her covered the whole entire time. Luckily she slept almost the whole time we were there too. They have all kinds of fun stores like Coach, Tiffany's, BCBG, H&M, Love Culture, Forever 21, Gymbore, and lots more. The landscaping and architecture is amazing! It had too many people there though, so I think I will wait to go back till the newness has died off.. It was a fun date though, so thanks babe for taking us!!

here are some pics of city creek I got on google images:

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

A video of Miss Mia

We decided to make a lil video today in honor of her turning 3 weeks old! Real short. Hope you like it!

Thursday, March 15, 2012

spring break, cuddly baby, and kevin updates

for some reason, my camera isn't working right now. it wont read memory cards.. So, baby and I got creative and took some pictures with the web cam on the computer. That's why they are all super bad quality.. sorry!

This week has been spring break for Kevin. Thank goodness! It's been so fun to have him home every morning/early afternoon. I am so sad that it's half way over already. I feel bad because we really haven't done anything fun besides go eat breakfast at Kneaders on Monday. He did change the oil and air filter on the scooter today though, which is something he enjoys doing. We have slept in every day and just basically relaxed all week so far- it's been so nice!! I am still not totally healed from the birth so that doesn't give us much of an option to do a ton.. (no bike rides, no hiking, no swimming...) so I guess relax is all we can do this week! 

Today Mia has been pretty needy. Usually, she just eats, then gets her diaper changed, snuggles for a little bit, and goes right back to sleep. Then, during the day will sleep for about 2.5 or 3 hours at a time before she wakes up again. Today though, she keeps waking up every 30 minutes or so and is wanting to eat, or is fussing till I pick her up. The minute I pick her up and snuggle her, she stops crying. I kinda love that I have had to hold her all day because I always hoped I would have a snuggly baby!!! She has been pretty gassy today so maybe that's why she can't stay asleep- because her tummy hurts? Anyway, finally around 3pm today, she fell asleep laying on my chest while we were sitting on my bed. I layed her beside me on the bed and then I fell asleep too! we slept until 5:40, and then she fell back asleep on my tummy again when my visiting teachers came at 6. I know you shouldn't fall asleep with a baby in your bed but she is so little still that she wasn't going to be moving anywhere. She doesn't sleep with us at night so a nap with mommy once in a while is ok right? Haha. 

She is starting to be awake more often now. I love it. She smiles when she is awake once in a while and loves to be talked to. So far being a mom has been easy for me... I have been so calm and have loved it- even when I am tired (which honestly hasn't been that much since she sleeps well at night.) God must have really blessed me with a good baby because he knows I have major anxiety/depression issues haha. 

Here's some pics from Mommy and Mia time tonight.. :)

Aside from baby stuff, life is going good. Kevin is still at USSynthetic, and loves it. His parents are putting their house up for sale in Springville (makes me so sad!) which is where he grew up his whole life. They need something a little more spacious and open for all the family and they really need a garage. We hope they can sell it fast and find something they really love. Still sad that they are selling it though! I love that house. I wish I could buy it for myself...

Kevin has been driving the scooter to work all week. He says the weather is good enough and he likes to ride it to save on gas money. We really have gotten good use out of that scooter! I am so glad we still have it.

We will be getting our tax return sometime in the next week or two. I am glad we finally have our taxes done! We are getting a return- thank goodness. Just not nearly as much as last year. But hey, considering I dont pay taxes on hair stuff through out the year, its a miracle we even get a return..

I have now lost almost 25 pounds (changes from day to day by a pound or two) since having Mia. I am really looking forward to getting to the gym after the 6 weeks healing time is up.. I want to get in shape! I haven't done the splits in forever, I can't wait to get working on that too. I miss dance!

Well, that's about all I have to write about tonight. Wait, shout out to my brother Lance and nephew Daniel who are both having birthdays today! hope it was a good day for you both. :)

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

my two week old baby

K, where has time gone?! Mia is already two weeks old? What? It's gone by so fast... Too fast. I want her to stay snuggly and little forever.

Here are some facts about this baby so far:

  • She now weighs 7lbs 5oz. (7lbs 12oz. at birth)
  • She is now 20 inches long. (19.5 at birth)
  • She sleeps AMAZING. Usually, she takes naps that are about 2 1/2 hours to 3 hours long during the day, and then sleeps for a good 4 hours at night. We have only had two nights where she has woken up like every 2 hours, but for the most part, 4 hours is what she does. (thank goodness!) 
  • She smiles while sleeping. All the time. Either she has gas, or is communing with angels. Haha. Or both. :)
  • She makes a little noise that sounds like a sea horse. It's so funny. I need to catch it on video.  
  • She hates to be put in the carseat. She will cry really hard when you first snap her in, but then will stop crying and fall asleep the minute you pick the carseat up and put it in the car. She likes the car. 
  • She makes an "o" with her lips all the time. Its so cute! I need to get a picture of that too.. 
  • She likes it when I sing to her when putting her back to sleep. I usually sing I am a Child of God, I Love To See The Temple, A Childs Prayer, and then a song that I know from my childhood.
  • I have a hard time burping her. Usually Kevin is the only one who gets her to burp. She just swigs my milk in like none other and then has to pull away quick and cough 5 times because she inhales it! It's kinda funny but sad too haha. 
  • She projectile vomited on me yesterday. She was eating and drank too fast and pulled away to cough and all of it came out on me. It was awesome. Haha. 
  • She has been sleeping in her crib in her room since day one. I love it. 

Her lips are my favorite feature about her, then her hands. Her lips are just perfect. 

I have so much fun dressing her up and playing with all her hair! When its wet, her hair is SUPER curly. So, I put a little gel in the curls to keep it curly sometimes. 

She is always happy in the mornings. We open the blinds every day and let the sunshine come through and it makes us both so happy! 

Well, that's all for today. Just a lil update! We love our little Mia! 

Monday, March 12, 2012

The NICU- birth story part 2

I thought I better post the rest of our stay at the hospital so I don't forget anything. :) 

In my last post, I left off where Mia had been brought back from the NICU and I fed her, and then she went back to the nursery. The next morning, She came back into our room and spent the whole day there. It was so fun to just be able to pick her up and snuggle her all day! I loved it! I really was in heaven. Kevin loved it too, and we had a bunch of visitors that day. Around 3 or 4 in the afternoon, we noticed she was breathing weird and her tummy was retracting when she was breathing. I decided I better call in the nurse to have her take a look at Mia. 

As soon as the nurse listened to her, she decided to take Mia back to the nursery to get some tests done, because her breathing didnt sound right. We said ok, and took that as a chance to get a nap in. An hour or two later, they brought her back in. They decided to do some blood tests on her, and then came to the conclusion that she needed to be taken back up to the NICU. At this point, there were 2 nurses in our room with Mia, and one CNA. I was so overwhelmed, and really confused. I asked why they were taking her back up, and they said that Dr. Dayton wanted to talk to me on the phone and explain. So, they handed me the phone they had and Dr. Dayton told me that Mia had an infection, high biliruben levels, and her respiratory rate was 100, when it should only be between 40-60. They wanted to take her up and put an IV in to administer antibiotics and put her under the lights. I asked how long she would have to stay up there, and she said at least two days, if not more. That would mean we would have to go home without her...I was trying so hard to hold back the tears, because there were so many people in our room and I HATE to cry in front of people... 

I frantically looked at Kevin and all I wanted was to just be alone with him and have him hold me and tell me our sweet little girl was going to be ok. I got off the phone with Dr. Dayton and the tears let loose. The nurses told me everything was going to be OK and that they would take good care of her. That still didn't take the knot out of my stomach though, and the sadness away that we both felt! They wheeled little Mia away and my tears were just running loose. I felt like I had just gone through 9 months with her and then to have her taken away from me when I first had a chance to physically hold her in my arms was just like the end of the world. I never realized how much love you could have for your kids until that instance, where I just knew for the rest of my life I would be worrying about our baby... if she fits in, if she is healthy, if she is happy, if she dies before me/really young, if she has friends, and the list goes on and on.. I just realized that I would do anything for my child. I wished it was me going to the NICU instead of her! :( 

The next day was Friday, and I was to be discharged to go home. I wouldn't have to leave the hospital until 9:15 pm, so we had all day there to rest. I was really dreading the end of the day because I didn't want to go home without Mia. Especially because I didn't know how long she was going to be there. What if she smiled for the first time and I wasn't there to see it? 

My mom came that day and we ventured up to the NICU to see our baby.We were allowed to visit as much as we wanted, but they wanted her under the lights pretty much 24-7.. So holding her when I wanted was out. I really only got to hold her when I fed her, so I cherished those moments. She started off in the 'A' NICU, where the sicker babies are. That night, they moved her over to the 'B' side of the NICU since her breathing had improved a little. 

While my mom was there visiting, the nurse practitioner came by and told me that they had some 'rooming in' rooms there at the hospital, provided by the Ronald McDonald foundation and that we were going to be able to stay in one of the rooms! They wanted me close to Mia so I could get up to feed her in the night. I was so glad we didn't have to go home, and that the rooms wouldn't cost us anything. Also, the bed in the rooms were big enough for Kevin and I to fit on so he was able to stay too! I will be forever grateful for the use of those rooms we got. So, We slept in them Friday night after I got discharged out of my room. The room was just down the hall from the NICU so it was a short walk in the middle of the night to go feed her. We also got to stay Saturday night, since she wasn't ready to come home yet. 

Saturday her bili level went up, and she still had an infection. For some reason, she wasn't improving really and it scared me. I think the reason it scared me so bad is because they didnt know what the infection was, just knew that she had elevated white blood cell count and that she needed fluids and antibiotics. I kept getting thoughts like 'what if her liver never starts to work and her bili gets so bad.. ?' I just felt like she needed a blessing... So, we called Kevin's parents and asked his dad to come help give a blessing. His dad did the anointing, and Kevin did the blessing. It was such a beautiful blessing and just blessed that the doctors would be inspired to know how to help Mia get better and that Mia would know how much her parents loved her. I cried.. no surprise there. :)  We got to give her a bath that night right in the NICU. It was fun, she loooooves having her hair washed! 

She was trying to drink the bath water the whole time, it was hilarious. She found her hand, and started licking it! 

They bathe so differently than I had learned. They said you can do a tub bath even if their chord is still on because they found that it doesn't matter either way. The nurse said they bathe the babies in the NICU every two days, and they have never had a problem with the chord. They also wrap them in fleece blankets to keep them warm and let the blanket get all wet. They taught us all the tricks! 

The next day was Sunday, and the blessing worked! She had started to turn around health wise and her bili went down! The nurse practitioner said they were going to take her off the antibiotics that night, and that she could come home Monday!!! I was so happy. I know that blessing helped her. So grateful that Kevin has the priesthood and could give her a fathers blessing. I love my husband!  Later, my mom and dad and Ammon brought Kevin and  I some yummy dinner. Spaghetti, salad, garlic bread, steamed veggies... it was all good. We took my mom and dad in to see the baby again and this picture shows my dad holding her. It shows where her IV was, they had to keep a stint on it to keep it straight so her IV wouldn't come out or kink or anything. Poor baby had so many probes on her!

This is me trying to calm her down when she was getting a diaper change, this girl hates being naked! 

While she was in the NICU she had a harder time eating. I was pumping after every time I fed her but my milk really didn't come in until the day we came home or the day after. So, occasionally we had to feed her what little milk I had pumped through a syringe and tube, and let her suck on a finger with the tube. It's called SandS. I think. 

I loved that she started recognizing my voice. She would stare at me and start to smile at times. It sure made me happy to see her paying attention to me- and when she calmed down because I would sing to her. 

Her feet were poked a million times for the biliruben, oh so sad... :( She has all these pokes on her heels now. I should get a picture of them. 

my baby gettin her tan on. 

Me and Kev visiting our cutie

She hated that mask... I would too gosh dang it! 

They let us stay in the room again that night, and the next morning, Monday, was the day I was to be induced. Luckily, she had already come! And, we could finally take her home! We got up early, packed up everything, had to watch a few videos, she had to pass her carseat test (they made her sit in the carseat for 90 minutes to see how she handled it) and the nurses all had to check our out to make sure everything was ok. She passed everything with flying colors and was ready to come home!!

snuggling my sweet baby before we dressed her to bring her home!

Haha, she looks silly in this picture, I think she was in the process of stretching. We were so happy to have her off all the machines and dressed in her cute outfit :)

She slept all the way home (the two minute drive it is, haha) and then went in her crib when she got home. 

She ended up being in the NICU for about 5 days all together and we are forever grateful for the awesome nurses who took such great care of our little Mia! We are so glad she is home, and doing well. We have adjusted well and for the most part I feel pretty good. Still a little sore in the lady business haha, but I am just glad I am not throwing up every day... and honestly, I have WAY more energy than I had before, even though I am not getting as much sleep. 

We love Mia so much and she is definitely a fighter! Today was my official due date- yet Mia will be two weeks old in two days. I can't believe she is already two weeks old. Where has time flown???? No matter how fast she grows up, she will always be my baby... 

I Love you little one!

Friday, March 9, 2012

the birth story *lots of pictures, and long post*

this is going to be super long.. and could get detailed. fair warning :) (dont worry, no gross pictures or anything like that)

basically, my labor and delivery was so great. yea, it was painful, and long, but looking back, it really was such an amazing experience. here is the story...

Tuesday the 28th I went into the doctor for my weekly check up. I was dilated to a 1.5 still (same as the week before) but my effacement had improved from 65% to 75%. She asked if I wanted her to strip my membranes again but I said no since the time before it hurt like a mother.. plus, she said they would induce me the next week, Monday March 5th.. (a week early) so I figured I better just wait and let it happen on its own or plan on getting induced.

That day when I got home, I decided I had better pack my hospital bag and make sure the diaper bag was all packed up too. There were dishes in the sink and lots of dirty clothes but I figured I could do that the next day... so I ended up resting most of Tuesday. (bad idea!)

The next day, Wednesday the 29th (leap day!) Kevin had school. He had to give a big presentation in his construction management class. He gave me a kiss goodbye at 7:30 am, and then left. I fell back asleep. At 8:38 a.m. I woke up to the worst contraction in the world. (well, to me it was haha). I couldn't move. At first, I thought it was just intense indigestion.. like bad poo pains (tmi) so after it passed a little, I went and tried to go to the bathroom. When I reached the bathroom, like two feet away from our room, I had to stop moving, because another pain came. I figured it was contractions. I decided to start writing them down. I made my way back to bed, and got a notebook out. I called Kevin and told him something was happening.. that today was the day! I told him I would call him when I knew more and not to worry or come home until he got his presentation done. Within an hour, I had 14 really intense contractions. They first started out at 5 minutes apart, then 4, then 3. I knew something was happening. My water had not broken, but these contractions hurt so bad, I felt like I had a cyst exploding. I called my mom, who told me to call my doctor, who told me to go ahead and go into labor and delivery. I called my mom again, and asked her to come pick me up and take me to the hospital since Kevin was at school. She came right over, and I really struggled to even walk out to the car! I kept having to pause and bend over during contractions.

I was kinda bummed because the night before I took a shower and washed my hair, but decided to let it air dry curly. When I got up it was like all over the place and not cute at all... so sadly I had to go into labor looking like death. Haha.

So my mom drove me over to UVRMC (which is only 3 minutes from our apartment) and we made our way up to the 5th floor. It was 10:15 am. I hardly made it up there! I texted Kevin and told him that my mom had taken me to the hospital. He said "what! When were you going to tell me you were on your way?" I told him I didn't want to stress him out because I knew I would have to be on the monitor before they would officially admit me. He said as soon as his presentation was over, he would come. They got me hooked up to the machine and checked me. I was dilated to a 3 and 80% effaced. If your water hasn't broken, they hook you up to the monitor and see if you make any progress over an hours time, and if you haven't, they don't admit you usually. Luckily (not sure if thats the right word haha), my contractions were super strong and were definitely doing something. An hour later, my nurse came in and checked me and said I was at a 3 1/2. At this point I really really wanted an epidural. I hadn't yelled or screamed or made any noise during the last hour. My mom just sat by my side and every time I had a contraction, she would rub my arm and tell me to breath. She would tell me to relax my eyebrows, my mouth, my shoulders my hands... and that really helped. I was impressed with how calm I was. I would not have been that calm if my mom wasn't there. Kevin got there around 12:30. He looked pretty nervous, but I think he was excited. He sat down next to my mom and they whispered for the next little while as I was trying to concentrate through my contractions that were 2 minutes apart. The next hour, I had only progressed by another half a centimeter. They said when I got to a 4 1/2 they would give me an epidural. Oh how I was praying to get there ASAP!! *im warning you, I do not look good in these pictures haha!*

By this time, I had already thrown up 3 times. The contractions were so intense that it made me sooo sick. I hadn't eaten anything that day either, and i'm sure that didn't help. I was really really dehydrated, so when they tried to give me an I.V, it wasn't happening. I got poked 7 times, by 4 different people.They blew 4 veins. I just wanted my I.V. in because they said they would give me a little bit of pain medicine to help me out before my epidural came so I could relax. Once they got it in, I got my medicine, and for about a half an hour, it helped. The nurse came in at that time and noticed I had progressed to a 4 1/2 and was 100% effaced. YAY! I could finally get my epidural. 

letting out air during a contraction. 

my awesome nurse Mandy, helping me turn to my side for the epidural. 

my favorite guy, because he had the drugs... haha

the epidural all in. 

After I got my epidural, and it started to kick in about 10 minutes later, my room became the party room! My best friend Ally showed up (I wanted her to be there) and I could actually talk. The epidural didn't fully take on my right side for a few hours, but luckily my epidural was great. I couldn't feel my contractions at all, but I could move my legs and feet pretty good. It was kind of a weird sensation. My brother lance called me right after I got my epidural and while I was on the phone with him, I heard a "POP", then felt warm water... haha, my water had broken! I said "Uh, lance, I think my water just broke... I gotta go!" I don't think he will ever forget that conversation.. poor guy. I am glad my water broke AFTER I got my epidural!

The doc came in to check me and laughed because I was laughing and talking and having a good time. We told her before I had my epidural I was silent and focused and didn't say a word, and thats when she laughed! She said "What? Gillian not talking?!" Hahaha, luckily my mom caught a picture of her laughing about it. 

From that point on, things went pretty fast. I got the epidural around 2:30, water broke about 15 to 30 minutes after that, then we partied some more. 
The part I waited for 9 months!!! Lime flavored pebbled ice! Oh how much happiness it brought me.  (can you see the huge bruise on my hand already?!)

I was my RN's only patient that day. Lucky me! She was amazing and spent so much time taking great care of me. 

Kevin sat by my side and held my hand and gave me kisses. I love that man!

My nurse had to write happy birthday!

Me and the bestie! So glad she was there with me, thank you Ally!!
Kevin's mom and dad headed over to wait to see the baby. They got there around 7:15 and I started pushing a  few minutes after that. They waited in the waiting room. 
 By 7:00 I was a 10, and ready to push! I was so excited. They told me first babies usually take between 1-3 hours to push out... 
Kevin had to drink some soda to make sure he had some sugar in him... don't want him passing out! haha

my 'im ready!' face

my lover man before I started pushing.

When I started pushing, Kevin held my head or hand while Ally and my mom took turns holding my leg. I pushed 3 times every contraction. My contractions were 1 1/2 minutes can imagine how tired I got since I pushed for 2 hours!

Half way through, I had to get oxygen. I had come down with a bad cold that week so I could not breathe, and was getting a bad headache. The oxygen gave me more energy and I was ready to push again!

The doctor kept telling me how much hair the baby had, I didn't want a mirror though because I thought it would distract me and make me feel sick... so I just pushed!

About a half hour before I was finished pushing, I started feeling more pain. My epidural was starting to wear off a little. Her head was crowned for like 20 minutes and that really made it uncomfortable..
at 9:14, she finally came. 

It was a feeling I will never forget. Not only was I so happy she was there, but I felt the spirit so strong and was also overwhelmed. It was a mixed feeling that I can't really explain. I was so tired, but they put her on my belly and the minute I saw her I shed a few tears. I couldn't believe Kev and I made her! She had so much hair. I couldn't believe how lucky we were to be given one of God's greatest creations. I couldn't believe it was over, and that she was here.

Here is is when they first put her on my tummy. I hate all the yucky stuff on them, haha. Her eyes were wide awake, but she wasn't breathing. She was totally blue as well, and it really scared me. But, I was so overwhelmed and had a million things going on that I really didnt even notice that something was wrong...

Aparently, the doctor hurried and cut the chord without even asking Kevin if he wanted to cut it. Kevin said that's when he knew something was wrong. When she first came out, she wasn't breathing or crying. Once they put her on my chest, she cried a little, and because of that I thought it seemed normal. When she was on my chest, the nurse pushed the button to call in the respiratory team (which I didn't notice). I barely got to see/hold her for one minute then they took her away..

Here I was after pushing and she was there. sooo tired. 

The team working on my babe. They tried to blow oxygen in her face but she wasn't really responding. They noticed her respiratory rate was 100, and its only supposed to be between 40 and 60. Her poor little chest was retracting really bad and so after they cleaned her up a tiny bit and weighed her, they whisked her away to the NICU before I got a chance to kiss or hold her. :(

Born 2-29-12 at 9:14 pm, weighing 7lbs 12 oz. and 19 1/2 inches long 

My little leap year baby! Every 4 years, shes going to get a rockin bday party. :)

After they took her away, Kevin went out to go up to the NICU to check on her. My mom left to go home since it was snowing so bad and she had to get home before it got too bad, but Ally stayed for a bit. I am glad she was in the room with me because once everyone left I felt so alone and sad. I just had my baby and all I wanted to do was hold her. I had been so excited to see her for 9 months and she was finally here, but I couldn't hold her! I started to cry a little because now I had realized that something may be wrong health wise with her... and all I wanted was to hold Kevin's hand and have him tell me that our sweet baby girl was going to be ok. Ally was great and really helped comfort me. I don't think it had all settled in yet, so the tears weren't too bad. The nurse came in and cleaned me up really good, then Kevin came down and updated me. Mia wasn't breathing that well so they put a C-PAP machine on her. She would hopefully start breathing better and be to our room later that night. Then around 10 or 10:30 they wheeled me into my new room. 

We got in our room and I realized my nurse was Brittney Jensen Dame! I was so excited. I went to high school with her (She is a year older) and I was glad to see a familiar face, although I felt bad she had to help me go to the bathroom and all that fun stuff :) Haha. She was so nice, and infact, totally spoiled me. Thanks Brittney! You are such a great nurse! When I went to the bathroom the first time, I was so nervous that it would sting.. but luckily it wasn't that bad. I did tear in delivery, in two places. I got a 2nd degree tear and had 7 stitches for that and then tore in another spot, but don't know how many stitches I had for that one. So I really thought going to the bathroom would be terrible.. but it wasn't too bad. 

After that, Kevin and I were starving, but since it was so late, the dining services were closed. Brittney said she would see what she could round up, and she ended up bringing us both turkey sandwiches, chips, chocolate cake, apple juice, yogurt, and tons of crackers and cookies! I was in heaven. I hadn't eaten for over 24 hours! They gave me some meds too, Motrin, a stool softener, an iron supplement since my hemoglobin was an 8, and some percocet. I was so grateful for that percocet for a few days...

After we ate, we called up to the NICU. By now it was about 12, and they said they were going to take her off the CPAP machine and see how she did on her own. If she did ok, they were going to send her down and let her be with us. YAY! Around 12:45, Brittney came in and told us they were sending her down and that they were going to do her bath and some other things in the nursery. She asked if we would like to come along. Of course we were tired but wouldn't miss it for the world! 

I was so overjoyed to see her and hold her little hand. It was fun to watch her get her first bath and pick out a bow for her hair. She was so sleepy, and didn't even cry when they gave her the first vaccination. 

After the nursery, we took her back to our room where I first attempted to breast feed her. She latched right on, but it hurt a little.. haha. We decided to send her to the nursery to be kept an eye on that night because she had been in NICU and I wanted to make sure everything was totally ok with her, as well as I wanted to get some sleep. 

I still have lots more story left since she ended up having to go to the NICU again, but since the rest of it is NICU stuff, so I will make a separate post about that. 

I loved my entire experience that day. It was long, but amazing. I had a great doctor, great nurses, and great support from family and friends. Most of all, I was blessed with a sweet little girl whom I will forever cherish and love for the rest of eternity! We love her so so much, and have really been abundantly blessed. She is by far the most amazing thing that has ever happened to Kevin and I. We couldn't be happier. 

Thanks again to everyone who has visited and sent flowers, and brought dinner so far. We have really appreciated it. 

I love being a mommy. I cant think of anything else I would want to do more in this life. 


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