This last month I have been kickin my butt at the gym! I am so proud of myself. I have worked really hard. I went to the doctor a month ago, and she told me that I needed to loose some weight to help out with the whole ovulation thing. Also, my BMI was 26, and thats un healthy for my height/age. So, we worked out a plan, decided I would work out a ton, and only have around 1200 calories a day for the first little while.
these were my skinny days. the days when I ate whatever I wanted, and felt good in all my clothes. ah.. the skinny days..
this was 9th grade.
this was 2008
2007 I believe, after I graduated. I was extremely skinny and fit then.
2005, when we took my brother to the MTC.
2007 I think. it was december, my bday, and this was a good time to be in a swim suit.
and i have no idea when this was. prob 2007 summer that I graduated.
well, skinny got taken over by fat. but skinny will soon reign again!!!
This part is really really REALLY hard for me to post. So, just know that I did this so I can look back and remember how I looked, and remember that I never want to go back! I never wanted to be overweight. I used to be this little skinny thing and then with birth control and stopping dancing and being as active as I was in high school, added lots and lots of pounds on me. I hated the way I looked. I always felt super fat and ugly. I always felt uncomfortable. I didn't feel sexy. I had to look at myself in the mirror every day and realize that this is NOT how I wanted to look. And for that, I needed to change! So, no more of this!
So, here I am, keeping it real... Before: 180 pounds- my HEAVIEST weight. uuuughhh (sorry for the sports bra and spandex, it gives you the idea though of my flabby belly!) This was taken on June 1st, 2011.
oh man. I want to cry when I look at this. just 3 short weeks ago, I was this person. People were always asking me how far along I was. I hated that question more than anything. I usually just responded, "i'm just fat." I cannot let myself get like this again. Granted, I wasn't eating any differently than I did when I was skinny. I just wasn't being as active as I was, and my metabolism slowed down a lot. Also, a side affect of PCOS is weight gain. So, I am going to have to try REALLY hard to work on that. Again, I am super embarrassed about this, but I had to post it so I can remind myself where I was, and where I never want to go again.
During: This is me as of TODAY, June 27th, 2011. I now weigh 169, a total of 11 pounds lost in about 3 weeks! You can't tell as much what my stomach looks like because of the tshirt, but I can definitly tell a difference, and I already feel better about myself!
My tummy is getting flatter, my legs more toned (my legs have always been kinda strong), and my arms are more toned as well. I can't wait till i get to my goal weight- 150 pounds- and can continue to shed off the weight and maintain a healthy BMI and diet.