Monday, June 28, 2010

I'm in want

So, it's late, but I can't sleep right now. I have layed here for about an hour trying to sleep... but it aint happening. Kevin is fast asleep by me. My sweet hubby. I just love him. So, I guess I will blog!

Just to change it up a little: Here are some things I am wanting right now:

Long Blonde Hair. I love this hair. 

A Pair of gray or gold heels. I love these!!! So awesome!

Glitter Toes to go along with the heels. The perfect summer toes.. 

A Cricket. Kevin says if I dont buy a craft or decoration for 2 months, then he will buy me one. YAY!

All of this makeup from Sephora. I love the new store they have here in Provo. Its amazing makeup!!!

The makeup brushes from Sephora. Mine are getting a little shabby.

A dish set. This one is from Pottery Barn. I don't need this particular one, but I like it a lot. I would never be able to afford this one. We didn't get any dishes when we got married. So we have crappy ones that we bought as poor newlyweds.

This Dress... but more modest. I love the color and design though. So fun and summery. 

An iphone. I really really want one. 

Thats basically it right now. Nothing that I am coveting. Just a few things I think would be fun to have.

Well, Kevin is bugging me to put this away and cuddle him. So needy I tell ya! Haha, jk, I will take needy over anything any day.


Thursday, June 24, 2010

Cooking, Decorating, and Gardening

Here are some of the things I have been doing/learning in the past few weeks!

This is a picture of "Chicken Pillows" but modified by me. I cooked chicken in the oven and then shredded it, and mixed it with a package of cream cheese. Then, I put that mixture inside premade cresent rolls. I then rolled the rolls in parmesean and oregano, cooked them for about 15 minutes, and wala! It was so good. Normally my mom makes these with mushrooms, but me no likey. 

I made the wall art. Kevin cut me out some wood, I modpodged some scrapbook paper to it, and then hung them up! I bought the candle holder. Super cute.

Our flowers are still alive! 

The tomatoes. 

Our Cucumbers

Our Peas

And our baby carrots!

Monday, June 21, 2010

I will be here still.

So. I'm gonna get personal on here right now.

I haven't shared anything really super personal lately because I feel like I share a little too much about my life sometimes.... but this is my therapy. Seriously. I always feel better after I blog. Haha.

This last month has been the hardest month I have probably ever had.

I have been discouraged, sad, offended, sensitive, emotional, confused, tired, crazy, worn out... stressed out, you get the jist. I know Kevin has felt the same way. We both have been so stressed this last month. Honestly, I don't know where all of it came from. Well, I do. After I got my surgery, I started stressing out. Workers Comp paid for it and has been giving me money every two weeks to help with our income since I haven't been able to work- but it's not very much at all. We have always paid our tithing and for that we have been truly blessed. But, not working has brought a lot of stress in.

Reasons being 1-I got super board. Sitting on the couch. Staring at the wall, feeling so helpless since I could only use one hand. Kevin was washing my hair, helping me go to the bathroom, cooking, doing dishes, and all that good stuff. I started feeling super inadequate. I felt like a wife should be able to do all of those things no matter what was going on. So, that was reason one. Feeling inadequate.

Reason 2- We were used to making a certain amount of money until I got surgery, and then everything was much tighter and we had to watch our money much more closely. Money has always stressed me out my whole life. Which is funny, because now I make more money than I ever have and now I really don't have anything to worry about, but it still stresses me out. I think it's because I grew up in a home that had no money. Which was sad to see, because my mom worked so hard but money was always tight for them. It was always such a problem. I've discovered that when I find out that others are struggling with money I feel the need to make it my problem too, and try to help others out. I just don't want anyone to struggle with it. I hate thinking about money. And I know that I will ALWAYS be that way. No matter if we are making a million a year, or 20,000 a year. I will always be stressing about it. It's a bad bad quality I have. And no, I don't spend a lot of money. I am pretty good with our money infact. I like good deals and like to look for coupons and things. I do well with it. There is no point in spending money on something you don't need unless you have been saving up for it. (in my opinion.)

Reason 3- Insurance. I don't even want to go there. All I know is that we still don't have it, and I don't know what we are going to do. We make too much for Medicade. I recently found out that the agent we were going through never turned in our papers to the place we were trying to get on with. Kevin was furious. It has been a big mess. Basically, I have had so "many health problems in my life that no one wants to cover me" (says the agent.)

Reason 4- I'm sensitive. WAY too sensitive. You could look at me and I could take it the wrong way and cry. It's insane. I hate it more than anything. I don't understand why I was made that way?

Reason 5- Like I said in my last post, I have gained some weight. I don't feel fat, but I don't feel myself. I have been working out, and eating better, and eating things I never used to eat before, like eggs, grapes, broccoli, things that picky eaters dont like. Haha. But I am, because I hate the way I am. I didn't feel I had a problem with the way I was until I had been asked if I was pregnant. FIVE TIMES this last month I was asked. Lovely. Guess I need to change a little?

Reason 6- School. I am juggling the thought of returning. I have been teaching Musical Theater for the past 3 or 4 years. I have loved it. I love teaching. in my patriarchal blessing, it tells me that I will be using my talents to teach youth my whole life. And I know I will, because I am good at it, and I like to do it. But, School? Not my thing. I already did hair school. And I struggled. I am not smart. Things dont come easily to me. But, I am creative, and I do have a talent with singing and dancing. And teaching. So, what to do? Kevin doesn't really want me to because we would have to get loans. We don't qualify for pel grants. Everyone keeps telling me to get one, but we already tried, and we make too much. We pay cash for Kevin's schooling, so every semester, our savings drains. Which honestly, that's amazing that we can even pay cash for it. So, that's another thing I have been thinking about.

Reason 7- I just put on an hour long show for my musical theater kids last month. It was hard, but rewarding and I am glad I did it. But who knows how I got it all done in the midst of my surgery!

Anyway. Thats that. But as I was thinking of all these things that had been bothering me lately, I just had the thought to stop thinking about all of it.

What's the point? I know those negative thoughts are not Godly thoughts. I know God doesn't want me to feel that way. So, I said a prayer. And felt better. And immediately, I thought of Kevin.

If I didn't have anything- no schooling, money, etc.- I would at least have Kevin. And that's all I really care about.

My husband.

He is my rock.

He loves me.

And that's all I need to know.

He is great. He does the dishes, helps with dinner, washes laundry, scratches my back every night, holds me when I cry, laughs with me when I laugh.. the list goes on and on! I can't help but smile when I see him. I can't help but smile when I think of him. I can't help but smile when I know I will be with him forever. I can't help but be assured that everything will work out how it's supposed to if I trust in my husband and the Lord. Kevin always makes me happy. No matter what kind of day I have had, he makes it better.

So today, I am grateful.

Grateful for Kev. I love him so much. God really was watching out for me when he sent Kevin to me. He knew that Kevin was just what I needed. And ALL I needed.

I love you Kev. xoxo. 

I leave you with a few favorite words from a song I recently found:

"If no one will listen, if you decide to speak, if no one is left, standing after the bombs explode, if no one wants to look at you for what you really are, I will be here still.
If you find your fists are all in red from beating yourself down, your legs have given out under the weight, 
if you find that you've been settling for the world of gray, so you wouldn't have to face down you own hate- 
If no one will listen, if you decide to speak, if no one is left, standing after the bombs explode, if no one wants to look at you for what you really are, I will be here still."

And I know Kevin would be there still. And he will look at me for who I really am, and still love me

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Kilee Gets Married!

This week was truly one of the busiest weeks I have had in a long time!!!!! It was full of things to do, but it was so much fun. One of my best friends, Kilee, got married on Friday in the Bountiful Temple! We have been friends since second grade. My mom used to teach her piano lessons and then we ended up moving two houses down from her. Growing up, we were good friends with Camilla who lived at the top of the street, Eliza, who lived in between Kilee and I, and Coutney, who lived at the bottom of the street. We all were lucky to have eachother. Kilee's husband's name is Neil Loveridge. He treats Kilee like a queen!! He is such a gentleman. I know he will make Kilee truly happy. :)

Kevin and I were fortunate enough to be invited to the sealing of their marriage! It was amazing. Their sealer was so awesome. He said a lot of good words of advice and one that I remember the most is "no matter how you change physically, love eachother for who you are and how you change." That hit me like a ton of bricks because I have had a difficulty loving who I am lately. I used to be a super skinny string bean but when I started taking birth control before I got married, I started gaining weight. I have gained probably 20 pounds since I got married. Its embarassing. If anything, I eat less, and now, I have a gym pass and actually work out. I gained it all very very quick, and the doctor said it was because of my birth control. I havent talked about it really with anyone because it's embarrassing. In the last two months, I have been asked if I am pregnant 5 times. FIVE TIMES!!! REALLY?! Come on people. Have some tact. Yes, I feel like a fat prego cow, but I know that Kevin still loves me, and I am not that big. I was happy to hear that sentence about loving who you are no matter how you change physically because It's something I need to work on.

Anyway, Heather, Me, and Camilla were Kilee's friends that attended the sealing, and the rest of these girls were waiting for us outside of the temple. I did Kilee's hair so we got up at 4:30 AM and I was sooo tired! Haha! But it was tons of fun. Kilee looked amazing. I loved her dress!! It's amazing that all of us girls have stayed such close friends. Anyway, here are a few pictures from her wedding/reception!

Kilee's Family- CJ, Kolby, Her husband Neil, Her, Her mom, and Her dad. Cute fam. 
They served Cafe Rio at their luncheon. It was yummy!
Eliza, Camilla, Me, and Courtney. We were the bridesmaids. I loved our outfits!!
Her beautiful tables! 
Her cake was absolutely beautiful. Oh, and her reception was the same place as mine. So pretty!
Liza Kilee and Me! 

Well, it was a great weekend. Busy, and tiring, but I loved every minute of it. I am so happy that Kilee and Neil get to be our new married friends! Yay! 

I have TONS more to blog about this week, but it takes forever since we dont have internet. Sorry.. I will try to get caught up! 

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Kaitlin's Senior Solo

My little sister Kaitlin had her last dance performance with Lifehouse Performing Arts Academy this last week. The recital was beyond amazing. If you want to see more dances, I posted videos on my facebook page:

Anyway, she choreographed this dance all by herself, and I recorded this video at the tech rehearsal. I am so proud of her, I loved watching her dance in all her dances!!

I am sorry I havent been blogging. We don't have internet right now, so it only connects to unsecure networks and thats like once in a blue moon... and its freakin slow. We were sharing with our neighbors but they moved.... So yea. More blogging to come!

Monday, June 7, 2010

Tim Tam Slam!

YAY, ally and kelvin are FINALLY together!!! :) Kelvin and Ally dated for 2 years before the mission and then broke up right before his mission to help him focus. They wrote and kept in touch, and now that he has been home for 2 months, they are finally officially together! You have no idea how happy this makes me.... :) :) YAY, finally my best friends boy is back and we can all play together! 
I have been so blessed to have Ally in my life! She is SO awesome! I cant imagine the world without her. She is the best listener, the most caring, kind, and talented girl you will ever meet! She always makes me feel good about myself. I am so lucky to have a best friend like her. 
Here is Kelvin, Ally, and Kevin (yes, Kelvin and Kevin... it's super weird) getting ready to do the Tim Tam Slam! Don't worry, I will explain it. 
Here we all are using my self timer. Haha. Kevin is silly....
Haha. So, Saturday they came over and Kelvin brought some treat/tradition thing for us to do. I guess they always did it on his mission in Japan. It's called the Tim Tam Slam. 

You buy these cookies: 
They are kinda pricey, but right now Target has them for 2 dollars a pack. 

Then, you make hot chocolate. (I know what your thinking, it's summer! WHY?! I will tell you why, because even though its hot, its DANG good!)

Put your hot chocolate in small mugs. You don't want a super tall one. 

Then, bite off a corner of the cookie on the top, and on the bottom. (A REALLY small corner)
Stick the cookie half way in your mouth, and dip it down into the hot chocolate and sip up. After about 2 seconds, the whole cookie melts and you hurry and put the whole thing in your mouth. It is DIVINE!!! So freaking good. I am telling you. This is it. Kelvin said on his mission he ate 5 packages. SICK

*by the way, do you see the dark in my hair? I decided to add some so it didn't grow out as bad. I like it :)

So, what are you going to do this weekend? The Tim Tam Slam!!

Sunday, June 6, 2010

A Day in Logan

My nephew Jared on Kevin's side got baptized yesterday in Logan so we drove up with Kevin's parents to attend it. Kevin's oldest brother Dale lives there and they have 7 kids. I have only been to Logan once before this trip. I think it's pretty there but I would NEVER want to live there haha! It's way too far away from anything. I guess I just am used to living really close to anywhere I need to be. It took us 2 1/2 hours to get there. And, their winters are horrid! haha Anyway, it was a fun little get away though for the day.

Here is a picture of Kevin's mom Reva and our niece Kara and Melissa. Kara is my oldest niece, she is 19. 

Here is everyone who was there for the baptism. 

My little buddy Jared who got baptized. He is such a cutie! I thought I was tan until I saw this picture with him. He is much more tan than I am :)

We went to Gossner's Cheese Factory after. It was my first time there as well! We sampled some cheese, got some ice cream, and then drank some rootbeer milk. Kevin loves that stuff... me not such a huge fan. But it was ok. 

e played outside of the cheese factory before we all left our separate ways. This is my niece Jane, Sharese's little girl. I love her to death! She is ALWAYS smiling. She really is such a good baby.

It took us forever to get home after that. There was tons of traffic. It was literally 5 or 10 MPH on the freeway for more than 45 minutes. Kevin's mom and dad wanted Kevin to drive home so they slept in the back while Kev and I jammed out to some music and waited for the traffic to let up! We got home around 8 PM last night and were totally pooped! Ally and Kelvin came over to hang out with us and we just had a super chill relaxing night. It was a good weekend for us!

More posts to come.... I have lots of pictures to share!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

i love my class.

I took pictures of all the girls in my singing class yesterday. It was pretty fun. I love all their costumes! The one below will be for their 70's songs. 

And, if I can play favorites, I have know the two girls below since they were like 4. I love them. They are twins. (Thats them practicing "It's My Party" with their fake microphones.) They are 8 years old now. They came to my wedding and are just the cutest girls EVER!

This is their 50's and 60's costumes. SO cute!

Just thought I would share!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

The End is Near

Lifehouse Performing Arts Academy Presents
Music Through The Ages
A Musical Theater Production
Friday, June 4th
@ Booth Brothers Stage in Spanish Fork
Time: 6:00 PM and FREE Admission!

Come enjoy fun dancing and singing to music from the last 60 years!
*Now enrolling new students ages 5-18
Call Gillian Mohlman for details: 801-616-7288

I am so sad, my class ends this week. It's been such a fun year. If you can come, please do! It will be fun.
Can't wait to start up again next year. Please, if you know anyone who can take next year from me, let them know! I am enrolling new students!


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