For example: Kevin and I got callings last week. We are the Photo Directory people- we make the photo directory for the ward members and do the pictures and such. He also got a "preach my gospel chairman" calling. There are two elders quorums in our ward so they get to make up a few callings. But anyway, so for sunday school, they have like 6 different classes you can go to. They rotate every 8 weeks. Right now, we are in the Preach My Gospel class. There are only 5 other couples in that class. Well, today, the lesson was on chapter two in preach my gospel. It was about the Atonement. He showed a movie. (please, watch it. Its really moving..) the link to watch it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UR7-fd3Lus4 . After the movie, he went into talking about how Heavenly Father did the same thing with his Son. He sacrificed his Son for us all. We talked alot about what the Atonement means, not only the definition, but in our own lives. While I was sitting there listening to people share their stories, I felt the need to share a story.
I shared about Ammon. I told them a little background about him, and his history with all his trials and hardships, but through it all, he has been so brave and faithful. I recalled an experience that I will never forget: Right before Ammon got the Halo last year, he was so scared. He wanted dad and all his brothers to give him a blessing. All the family gathered around the living room to see Ammon trying to smile. The boys all got in the circle and Dad started giving him a blessing. The minute Dad started, I knew the words were from God. I knew my dad couldn't say those things. (Not because he didnt want to, but because He didn't know how or why) But- some words that my dad said were something along the lines of "Ammon, you chose to come to this earth this way and you will be fine, you still have time here on this earth." Everyone in the room felt the spirit. There wasn't a dry eye there. My mom had to leave the room. To this day, those words still hit me. "You chose to come here this way". How could you choose to come to this earth with all these problems? How could you agree to having multiple problems, and knowing that you wouldn't be like other kids. You wouldn't walk, you wouldn't eat, you wouldn't go to school on a normal basis, you wouldn't have friends besides adults... How could you do that? But it goes deeper than that. Christ knew he was going to be crucified. He knew he was going to suffer for all of our Sins. He may not have known he was going to have to suffer alone, but he knew he would suffer in ways that we cannot comprehend. But- he still came. He chose to do it. No one made him. In a way, I feel like Ammon did the same thing. It hit me like a ton of bricks today. As I was sharing all of this, I was so emotional. I felt a blanket of love around my shoulders from my Heavenly Father telling me that No, he didn't make Ammon come here this way. Ammon chose. What an example that is to me! I know Ammon will probably read this, and may not understand. But, I wanted everyone to know that although this last year, and even All 14 years of Ammon's life have been so hard on us, that its O.K. He is here to definitely teach us all something. I think it has mainly been hard on us because we haven't understood. We keep asking "Why? Why Our Family? Why Ammon? Why when he is so perfect already?" The answer is simple. He chose to. I honestly believe that. I hope you all do too. So, I shared all of that today, and everyone in the class had tears in their eyes. The teacher then went on to tell us about a talk he had read. It is called From Beauty to Ashes. I came home and read it.
The teacher ended with: Each of us will taste the bitter ashes of life, from sin and neglect to sorrow and disappointment. But the atonement of Christ can lift us up in beauty from our ashes on the wings of a sure promise of immortality and eternal life. He will thus lift us up, not only at the end of life, but in each day of our lives."
I want you all to go and read that talk. You can find it on LDS.ORG. Its true though, We may think that our life has so many bitter ashes, but the atonement will lift us up in Beauty, and help us make it to the end. I know Ammon will be perfect someday. I cant wait for that to happen. If Christ didnt die for us, That wouldnt be possible. (Even though I already think Ammon is perfect). I just wanted to share all of that with you guys. It really made my day to make that realization that we all chose to come here, and we all get to go home together again someday. I love my family so much! I hope you all know that. :)